Well, I guess i'm retreating here. I guessed I had expected that I'd need another blog soon, so it wasn't a mistake to set one up early.

Yesterday, I received extremely shocking news. Well, for the first time in my life, I had a girl like me. Yes. She is an amazing person. Kind, cheerful, and always there for me.

However, yesterday she realised she had, in fact, no feelings for me. Her heart still belongs to her ex. I slept very easily that night. Must have been the crying that exhausted me.

Could not wake up today. I know I dreamt of something. I know i did. Usually that is the reason for me not wanting to wake up, but I forgot what it was about. Perhaps I was hoping that everything that happened the previous night was just a dream. But well, we all have to face reality one day.

I just cant help but feel so jealous of her ex. He should damn well know he is one lucky guy. Lucky to be able to win her heart, and lucky that even after all this time, she still loves him.

I just wish my luck would come one day.

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In school, everything I seem to think of, reminded me of her. I came into the class, placed my bag and went out for assembly, not before turning my phone off. Needless to say, once i saw my phone, I thought of how things are going to change. How I had always waited so anxiously for her sms.

During bio period, I remembered the little conversation on something related to bio. It was hilarious, as I recall. We were laughing and smiling. That beautiful smile of hers.

I'm sorry I can't go on.



javier-